Tuesday, 1 April 2014

Poem From Sissy

I set sissy a task to write Me a poem telling Me her feelings about Me and Our relationship and this is what she came up with. Please do remember when reading that English is not her first language and so some elements may be lost in translation. 

Thursday, 13 March 2014

Raising Money

Now money is a word most of us get excited about whether it be Me taking it out of your filthy little hands or you watching My well manicured fingers flicking through the pile of cash I've just extracted.

However this time it's a little different. I WANT YOUR MONEY!!!

For charity, that is.

As you all know I have been unwell and ultimately have now been diagnosed with Crohn's disease so with that in mind I am raising money for My chosen charity and I want you to help to contribute towards it. Why? Because it will make Me happy and that's what your purpose in life is, right?

So get out those credit cards and wallets stuffed full of cash and help to get Me to My not unattainable goal of just £100.00. In fact lets see if we can exceed My expectations shall we?

Here's the link you need and you know what to do. I wonder who will be first?

JustGiving - Sponsor me now!

Sunday, 2 March 2014

Getting Back To 'Normal'

I don't even know how or why I am writing this to be honest but just feel that I should let people know that I am still alive and still very much involved with certain boys, the ones that have earned My attention by being there for Me and not expecting Me to be there to satisfy their needs.

The last post I wrote spoke of how I had been ill with stress but it didn't mention that I had also been suffering with other health issues too, mainly because it's nothing to do with anyone and partly because it's embarrassing. However last couple of months I have been very ill indeed and still am but there is light at the end of the tunnel. I have had various test, scopes and MRI's and so far I have been told that I have IBD and probably have had it for about 10yrs with the last 12 months building to it's worst.

Next week I will finally be diagnosed with either Crohn's Disease or Ulcerative Colitis. Sounds like a weird thing to be happy about but I am just waiting to get started on some treatment that will hopefully help Me to get My life back. I am not going to go into detail but suffice to say it has had a very profound effect on My life of late, interfering with eating habits, sleeping, every day life, work and pleasure time. Attending events has been a major issue so have been out of the loop for a while and just feel like I have been stuck in a bubble for so long.

My husband, Slave S and Macperv have been fabulous. They have either been there for Me to talk to and understand what I have been going through, been there to cheer Me up when I have been having quite literally a really shitty day (a little IBD humour lol, never mind) and also just being patient and waiting for when I have been able to contact them.

I haven't been doing any cam work at all and there have been very few full shot photos including My face mainly because I look so ill and also because I am exhausted all of the time and usually asleep by about 9pm and not by choice. That's usually the time when I manage to sit down to look at emails etc but instead of getting very far with that I have been falling asleep. It's quite funny actually, well it is now I know why it's happening.

Anyway, as I mentioned earlier, next week I get My diagnosis and can start to experiment with medication to get Me back to full health. This is something that I will live with for the rest of My life but it something that I will learn to cope with and learn to manage. If any of you out there have any advice for this then please do email Me, beth_jennison@hotmail.co.uk

Looking forward; I am hoping to finally get to meet Slave S and have him serve Me as we have spoke about many times, he's such a good boy/gurl (depending on the day lol) and I have been so proud of him and continue to be. He finally managed to get to 200 days orgasm free and tonight we shall celebrate this fact. How? Maybe an orgasm? Maybe another 200 days orgasm free hahahaha!

Looking forward; I am hoping to get My website up and running again but this time with a difference. I am going to explore moving in a slightly different direction, perhaps into a niche area if you will but one that I know there will be a fair bit of interest in. To be continued ....

Looking forward: I am hoping to get more involved with events again once it is possible for Me to do so. I want to be back where I feel at home and that is playing with My friends and meeting new like minded people.

Looking forward; I am hoping to satisfy My desires with Macperv. That is all I am willing to say on this matter.

Looking forward; I am hoping to get back to real time sessions but in line with what My website will be about.

So that's it, now you know.

Sunday, 5 January 2014

A New Year Ahead!

Well Happy New Year to you all I say and I hope that you had a fabulous festive season. I know I did.

It's been a little over 2 months since I last updated here and that is because I have undergone a very stressful time in My life followed by some intense happiness.

Over the last few months I have suffered with a few illnesses and situations which ultimately culminated to Me having to take a trip to the local A&E department and being hooked up to a heart monitor for half the day. Luckily all ended well with that but I have to keep a check on My stress levels. However I do have another health issue which is to be investigated at the end of this month, nothing serious I hope but lets leave it at that for now.

The best bit of stress I have endured was the purchase of My very first house and to say that I am so incredibly happy is a complete understatement. The very fact that this roof over My head will all be mine in 25yrs time is such an exciting thought, who could have thought £90,000 worth of debt could make someone happy? hahaha. The fact that I moved house just a fortnight before Christmas was a bit of a bother and follow that up with having no internet access meant that taking a break from all of this was inevitable.

I have to say, having My hand forced like that did Me the world of good. I kept in touch with those of you that earned My attention and that was it, I did nothing above or beyond that. I spent the entire time basking in the glow of My family and enjoying My time with them to the fullest. Such a shame that all good things have to come to an end and now it's back to normal everyday life. Oh to be a Lady of leisure!

During My time away I have been very well looked after by My special boys and and I would be doing them a total disservice if I didn't show My gratitude here.

My husband has been My rock and has helped Me all the way through this and continues to do so, I couldn't do any of this without him at My feet, I love him with all of My heart.
Follow this up with the efforts of Slave S, My fabulous German boy. He has been there to listen when I needed to talk to someone neutral, he's been there to take the tasks I set him without a word of complaint and also shared My pain when I had some to share. As well as all of this he has showered Me with devotion and gifts not just for Christmas but also for My new house.
Then we have the one who has made Me smile out of the blue and who has waited patiently for Me to be settled and ready to resume our fun, My little Macperv. Images of you have certainly entertained Me even when I wasn't feeling like I needed entertainment lol.
Olive has been on service leave during the holidays but is now back to be being ignored and denied, back in his rightful place. It turns out Santa didn't bring him a bigger cock for Xmas!
Last but by no means least is My gorgeous Yesmiss. Messages let Me know I am in his thoughts and gifts let Me know I'm using his hard earned cash in the best way possible.
To all of you boys I just want to say thank you for being you, thank you for doing exactly what was needed of you and for doing exactly was was expected of you.

A few other people have been in touch but none of them deserve a moment more of My time or any further recognition.

As some of you know, I have closed My website for now for a couple of reasons: a) I just don't have time for anymore full time boys or real time sessions at present, work and a college course have put pay to that and b) I am wanting to redo it all once I have taught Myself how to build a website. I want it to be more user friendly and enticing. I will get round to that in due course so for now you can find Me here, on twitter, fetlife, Adult Work and via email.

Finally for those of you who are wondering what happened with the orgasm situation of My boys over the holidays the answer is nothing. The best way I could reward them was by NOT removing that fabulously submissive feeling you get after a long period of chastity. At present I think it stands at roughly 145 days for Slave S and My husband is about 3 weeks behind him. Olive has started a spell about 4 days ago and Yesmiss has been a very good boy and bought a new device with numbered locks, all for little old Me to play with! As for Macperv, his days are well and truly numbered just like the locks to his device! hahahaha.

It would appear that all good things come to those who wait and this bitch is making a comeback so keep them peeled for further installments.

Friday, 18 October 2013

Birthday Time

That's right it's My birthday on the 26th of October, that's just 8 days from now and to say I'm excited is an under statement. 

I'm feeling charitable this year and have decided that I shall make it easy for you and all I want for My birthday off you are amazon gift vouchers or cash. Vouchers will be sent to beth_jennison@hotmail.co.uk

Make your pathetic worthless existence that little less pathetic and do something nice for Me instead of for yourself. You don't need that cash you worked so hard for anyway, you know you don't deserve it. If you're lucky and you include your name in your gift, I may even say thank you. However that only applies to those who really impress Me. 

What are you still doing here? Run along wallet wankers and money sluts and make this Goddess smile on Her special day. 

Sunday, 6 October 2013

I want to play a little game ....

So the German boy stephan has been denied an orgasm for quite some time now and My husband has so far been one month since his last release. He knows his next release is not imminent as I have just purchased a nice new device for him which was ordered to be fitted as soon as it was opened. 

Anyway, sat at home this evening during him giving Me a foot massage, My husband asked when/if I would allow another orgasm? I told him how long stephan had been denied and told him that he had to try to beat this. 

So now My husband is in a quandary. Does he fight for stephan's release and therefore giving stephan the thing he himself craves the most, just so that he has a date to aim for? Also I would like to point out that stephan doesn't actually want to be allowed to cum for a while yet. 

Or does My husband keep stephan chaste so that he doesn't get the luxury of an orgasm but at the same time neither will he for a long time to come (no pun intended).

The decisions and struggles of a slave. Hahahaha. 

So Much Crap, So Little Time! -- Thank God For The Good Ones

So over the last month or so things have been manic for Me and as a result I have closed the doors to My stable for a while to concentrate on those that matter in My life; My family and My boys, the ones who know how to serve Me and look after Me. I have no time for crap from wankers.

Now then onto those that matter, those that make Me smile every time I get an email. Stephan, Olive, Macperv and Yesmiss. Take a bow, just one though, don't want you getting delusions of grandeur lol. Where to start? Oh yes lets start with Olive, this little one flits in and out and that's the way we like it but when he's in I have so much fun keeping him denied and completing tasks to 'try' to reduce his chaste term. This time he has been denied for a whole month and was allowed to try suggest ways to shorten this and bring forward his orgasm date (see I do allow them occasionally).

He suggested that he completes a task which he has failed before, to go into a store and buy a nightshirt/dress. Now instead of just nipping into George @ASDA and buying a cheap nighty for a fiver, a cheap place where no one would have looked twice at him, he decided to try to impress Me and show Me that he did in fact have some balls. His suggestion was that I went online and at Ann Summers store and pick one out for him, so I did. The challenge was accepted and no more was said.

D-day arrived.
I sat, patiently wondering if he was in the store buying his sexy new bed attire.
Then I received an email.

Miss beth, 

I'm sorry, I just couldn't pluck up the courage to go into Ann summers today. 

I'm very sorry 

What a total non shocker. So another arrangement was made and this consisted of him being in full work uniform and having his long awaited orgasm in the loo of his work place and then eating the mess he makes. This had to be accompanied by photo's for My eyes only, however My inbox remained empty and then today he emailed to say that he couldn't do it blah blah blah. Obviously he wasn't as desperate as he was making out so I have added a few more days to his term, much to his total pleasure as you can imagine. His saga continues.....

Moving onto My lovely little macperv, the best naughty little school boy I know lol. I have been having enormous amounts of fun creeping into his house and spying on him when he hasn't been looking. No I don't mean cat burglar stylee, I mean via a remote CCTV set up that we have. It constantly runs and I have the codes to access it so can log in and take a peak at what naughty things he is up to and sneak out without him knowing, right up until he gets a text message or email from Me with either a photo of his misdemeanor or a description of what he has been caught doing.

Macperv has continued to be a good boy by completing his tasks to a high standard, one of which was to make a kinky Aa Bb Cc using photo's from the net and he even slipped a few photo's of himself in there to illustrate a few of the letters. I especially enjoyed Cc for chastity lol. We have also implemented wearing a chastity device into his everyday life, not entirely sure he enjoys it but I love it and that's what counts. He's also been on a little shopping spree for himself, at My request of course and has bought a lovely girls school dress, I won't reveal what it's for but he does look fantastic in it hahaha.

Although My time with Yesmiss has been scant this year he still remains at My feet, pleasing Me whenever he can. I understand his circumstances and knowing him for over a year now I know that his intentions are genuine and when he is able, he pleases Me immensely. There were plans for him to get time up in the North West to take Me out to dinner but sadly he didn't manage to get close enough. As I said to him, the time will present itself when it is right.

I was going to write a little about stephan here but I have now decided that he should have a post of his own so that is what I shall do next.

These boys have continued to make Me happy, even when failing at tasks set. The effort alone from these few has been immense and sometimes that's all it takes to make Me happy, show Me that you are genuine by making an effort. Of course they have all paid their fines/fees and given some fabulous gifts also which of course makes Me smile even more!!

Keep up the good work My boys xx